the future is uncertain, but you cant just, run away from it.
so yup. i shall take one step at a time. im just going to live for the moment, and be less 主动. i cannot let him take me for granted. i think i am spending too much time on him. so yup, time to let my own hair down.
let him know that i can live without him. :)

previously, i have been trying to write diary, but i think i will switch back to blogger cos its more convenient, but funnily, just when i want to go back to blogger, freegate doesnt work as well as before. so well, i can only blog when freegate and internet is happy! hahhaa.

okay so i need to reflect a bit. basically, im feeling bored here in china, feels like im wasting time because i dont seem to have a life now. i think i need to have my own life, time to put my hair down and chill. haha. reliance is weak :)

i think i know what is my problem already. when i feel the need to be independent, it just mean that there is this insecurity in me. chill man, i really dont want to care about what happen, because, being independent is just in me. i dont have to prove it to anyone. i dont have to, i only have myelf to answer to. and i think, thats enough, as long as i dont regret what i do, im fine. i am here to be strong, i will not what ive gained to come to a waste. so yup, come on, lieu, stand up, be proud. you're good! :)

dont ever let this vicious cycle get you. get out of this cycle and you are free to go. dont trap your ownself.
hahaha, blogger always make me feel better :)
HELLO FRENS, I AM BACK! in blogging.
faster, welcome me back. hahahha.