lieujingying is stress about life again.
she is not happy today.
and she doesnt know why.

i think, i failed terribly. my mental isnt really strong enough. need to work harder to get my mental better.
as much as i hate to admit this, i surrended and mc-ed MP3002 on 15th dec. i was so angry at myself for being such a weakling on that day. i studied fucking hard for the paper the night before because i refuse to MC anything.
i keep telling myself, aye gal give up lar, just go home and take MC the next day because i know i can nv finish. but surprisingly, somewhere somehow, MY HAND REFUSE TO PUT THE PEN DOWN. so i jus continued doing papers.
BUT WHEN I WaKE UP THE NEXT MORNING, i stared at my notes. and then i went back to sleep. i slept through the 9am paper just like that.
I WAS TOO CHICKEN TO GO SCHOOL AND FIGHT THE PAPER.
fuck.

I didnt regret, but i was angry at myself for not persevering till the end. wo hen bu gan xin.






as always thank you to foc peeps for making my days. their presence remind me that, i do have a life. you guys are definitely the highlight of my uni life.