i was feeling stress with my life. to the extent of having a headache. and sick.
mp3011 makes me feel like im the dumbest person on earth. goes to show how little i noe.. and i assure you, thats not a good experience.

when people doubt you, FIGHT to prove to them that you can do it.

i am trying hard to be indepedent, yeahh its very hard, and so far, i haven been very successful yet. share a dumb story with you guys.
i was determine to take heat transfer lect today by myself so i sat alone in the middle of the LT. gh and eric came over and company me but they left after i told them im learning to be indepedent. BUT SADLY, I DIDNT LAST MORE THAN HALF AN HOUR. i jus stood up in the midst of lect and went to the last few rows to join my friends. SO MUCH FOR BEING INDEPEDENT! lol. but guess ive got to do it step by step first.

okay, so i'll stop trying hard, be less angry with myself, and learn to be strong. and learn to enjoy what i hate doing. which is to grow up, be mature.
and some people reading this might think, why worry so much abt growing up and be mature. just be happy and everythings gonna be fine.

no its not gonna be fine staying childish forever.
i have to grow up be mature, because i cant depend on my parents and friends forever. what if one fine day, im left alone and have to fend for my own survival.
i always laugh at this fren of mine, he said, what if im not doing enuff for my future. yes i may be laughing, but come to think of it, what if im not doing enough to survive in the future. what if my IQ isnt enuff to compete with those people out there? and what if, im not mentally prepared to be "cheated" by people? i wouldnt want to learn it the hard way right? nobody wants to.