hey gang, sorry for the last min (AGAIN) cancellation of my mini celebration with you guys. actually i cancelled it cos not of poor attendance. the attendance was quite good lah, cos only shawn and xp cannot make it. poor attendance was just an excuse.
currently, i really dont have the mood and energy to organise anything. ive too much things on my mind now. im tired, battling with my mind everyday since school starts.

my lil gastric incident impacted me quite a lot actually. but no worries, im fine. specialist says im fine as long as im on medication for the rest of the 1.5 mths. its nth serious lah, its just due to the hectic life i had for the past one year plus a lil bacteria infections which worsen everything. seems like my body is really going on a strike. but DONT WORRY, IM SERIOUSLY FINE. LOL.

i saw a saying today, " if you are tired, rest for a day or two, just don't quit"
so yeah, jy wont quit cos she is the one and only lieujingying you know (:

contrary to what some people think, im very much a follow the heart and do things kind of person. yes, i may sound damn logical to many but thats only because i feel that i should protect my heart sometimes. its a battle of heart and brain. and sadly, deep down and unknown to many, heart always win. and this is smth i hated. wish i can really practise what i think i should be doing. but really, im always very thankful to my circle of friends, who nv fail to scold me, make me face the reality and those that really cared for me.

despite having such great friends, it is still up to me to walk the kind of life i want. its still up to me to make changes if i dont like what im experiencing right now. its still up to me to think the way i think. so ultimately, its always a battle of yourself. and this is the battle we should NEVER lose.

and, i will never lose,
no matter how tough and messy my life is,
no matter how scare i am,
no matter how blur i am,
no matter how screwed i am,
no matter how overly optimistic i am.

i can lose to millions of people in a lot of things,
BUT
i will never lose. to myself.