can somebody just get me out of this mess.
i didnt think expect myself not being able to deal with this.
yes, my fren has been great, and cheered me up tremendously.
but, i really dont think i can do this.

used to ask people to be honest to themselves and pluck out the courage TO DO SMTH. but here i am, keeping all the hell to myself, lying to myself, and yet, not getting anything done.
how the hell does gals deal with all these bad relationship?

im angry at myself for being so useless.

but then again, nobody came to this life knowing everything. guess ive to openly talk about you and let people around me guide me through this shit. and i hope, thats gonna help.

ive faith in myself, that i will eventually get out of this shit one day. nobody say i have to do it by today. i will get out of it eventually, even if it takes one year. so for now, im hitting the books. im so not gonna let u do harm to my life. no more drinks and stuff. so yupp. FO.

okay, dun judge me.