today sucks big time. and the word sucks doesnt even come close to how i was feeling today.

i think some angry monster just fuse inside my brain today and make me feel that everything is so screwed up. im so frustrated at myself for not being my usual self. I NEED MORE DISCIPLINE.

first, i forget to bring my thermo notes, but it wasnt that bad because i paid attention to whatever was on the big slides.
but after thermo, it seems like my whole soul is drained out. i could hardly keep my brain clear and im practically a living zombie today. my whole body was so tired and lifeless that i could easily just collapse on the spot.

tech com period was slack today but there are still a lot of things undone.
EID meeting wasnt that bad, at least i was happier then. but still lots of things undone.
2011 drawing lab was okay, for the first time in semester, i know what was going on in class. and i seriously dun mind doing the lesson again tmr. and for once, i finish my drawing in 2 hours and that means i had one hour of slacking time.it feels good to be loitoring around school, walking as slowly as you want. its really good.
2002 lectures was a huge torture. i cant bear to sit through another 2 hours lectures so i slept after listening for one hour. nothing goes in, and my brain is just so mushed.
we left the lect early and i crawl to south spine 30 mins earlier.
i walk, and walk and walk and walk slowly.. feeling as though nothing had happened.
malay was interesting cos we did grp work today, and i love grp works! cos i learn so much faster in grp work.
crawled to CAC room and help out in the flower wrapping business. it was a pure waste of time. really, i think im gonna pon the flower wrapping session tmr.. im sick of fulfilling so many obligations there.
sometimes i think the word " thankyou" is over-used.
anyway, my parents picked me up from school and then we went to fetch my bro from his work. stopped at ah mei's prata and had prate. its really long since i sat down and enjoy supper and breakfast with them. come to think of it, i think i haven sit down and eat with them for onver 3 weeks already. cos weekends are burnt on projects, birthday parties, tuitions, and dinner meet ups.

and it doesnt help without any moolah in my wallet. im really broke to death.
im so broke that the bank doesnt allow me to withdraw any amt of money now.
im so broke that my ez link card doesnt work anymore.
im so broke that i still owe people money cos of birthday presents.

my god, for the first time in my life, im really really broke.
serve me right for spending so much.

and helplessness seems to like me a lot these days.
instill some lifeness in me.