
the sky is indeed very far away.
i don't understand.
the pessimist in me is really haunting me.
i hate it when people look at me in those disappointed expression or not look at me.
i hate it when people doesnt have faith in me.
there i am, trying to live up to the kind of life i want, but as always failed.
its not that i have a huge expectation in life. im a firm believer of playing hard and working hard kinda person, but i really hate it when people think that i only know how to play and incapable of working well. i mean, nobody really say that before lahh, but well.. like i said, pessimist is here to haunt me.
i think im trying too hard to fit into the world of perfections.
i just want people to have faith in me lah. okay fine, its not that people doesnt have faith in me, its just that i go ahead and destroy the faith people have in me cos im always the blur blur one.
but really, i think i tried too hard.
i should just sit back relax, and allow my heck care attitude to take charge again.
i should just chill and stop living in the world of destruction. you are who you are. and nothing will change that. blur jiu blur lohh, but living in self detruction make things worse.
it all boils down to self confidence and the guts to speak out.