lots of thoughts are flooding through my mind and i cant seem to pen it down here.

two of my sj besties broke up last week. =( they were okay before i went for the camp and BOOOO, suddenly when i came back, they have broken up. it was quite a shock to hear that this happy couple broke up after 2 yrs of relationship. they are the one which everybody believe will go through the marriage and stuff. but well, its over now.

cant helping thinking about this. kinda lost faith in relationships, thats why i nv dared to really commit in one relationship. was scare that it was gone before i realised what happen, because the right person are hard to come by. i wldnt want to experience the heartbreak. ;(

anyway, during the camp, i actually come to know guys better. like why are they so interested in porn, how they work in a relationships. lol. i was bored with all the waitings! anyway, apparently they thought that girls are giving them false hopes when they agree to go out with them for a dinner or texting them like crazy. me, on the other side thinks that its perfectly normal to go out with guy for a dinner, but well, they(those who dont believe in platonic frenships) might get the wrong idea. =x so gotta be careful on who we go out for dinner with. lol.

im sooo gonna do research on how do guys feel when the gals are open abt their feeling for guys. ahahah. i think the result varies. some would rather girls to keep quiet because of their ego. while some would be more appreciative to girls lik that because they dont have to do guessing games. hahha duno la. i wana go interview ppl liao! hahaha.

i wanna go "chase" after my crush! =D at least i wont regret when we arent meant to be. wahahha!