ok i have this really strong urge to get this out. it has been days since i wanted to do this and i avoided doing that because i noe it will make things very worse. and worse, it might reflects badly on me. but hell, im not giving a damn to it now.
i jus want to get it out.

all those tolerance come to nth? so u claimed nobody understand u. ok fine. turn it the other way round. so wad is it that u noe abt me? so there u are, acting happy and leaving me feeling airy? word of advice, if you are unhappy about them, show it. why blame it on me like its all my fault. i noe u expected more from me because u regard me as your friend. but hello?? i only understand u slightly more than the rest, OK? simply because u never told me wad went wrong EXACTLY. or mayb im just too INSENSITIVE to notice it.

im so sick of every single thing. im sick of pleasing others! im sick of placing so much hope on a fren. the only reason why im keeping quiet is because i dun wan to lose another good frend. i've lost one before and there's nth i can do to get her back.