1. for no real reason, i will just go to one corner and refuse to talk to anyone. and once i start keeping quiet, ppl would start thinking that im angry or sad. peace is very impt! hahah, no la, i dun even noe why i did that.
2. just the sight of her make me feel like going home. dun ask me why. mood gone, difficult to get it back.
3. preferences, i dun like the things people like. and for some reason or another, the things i like are those people dont like. but that one understandable la hor.. everyone has their own taste.
4. im always very distant from people's heart. and im not even making any effort to remove that gap. in fact, i think i am always running away when people start coming close to me. i duno. i just feel that there isnt any point in doing so. ultimately its only you who can help yourself when you are stuck in situtations or torn with choices. and the idea of people knowing what i am going to do next scare me. i dun wan to be a predictable person and let those who wants to harm me have a chance.
5. i dun even noe what kind of a person am i. situations have changed me. i guess its all back to the idea of getting acceptance from people. desperate for acceptance ruin personality.

im feeling so lost and helpless. can someone just tell me what is going on? i totally am lost. i duno what i want to do in the future. worse, i dun even noe who am i and wad are my strength. all i noe is that im just some hot temper freak.

hahaha. okok. gotta stop being so negative. chalet is coming up. yea!!!