hey people,
sorry for not informing of the change in URL =)
Well, there are 2 people that i dont want them to read my blog
so ya, pls understand.

ARG!! I just hate it man. its freaking frustrating. i wish he wouldnt talk to me when he comes back. pls!! i dont want him to affect my good mood. just the thought of him make me sick. wadever la. just my luck that i get to know people lik this.

haix. i noe its kinda mean of me to say this. but i really cant stand it.
wear my shoes.
think my thoughts.
call me selfish for all i care.
im at the end aredi.
imagine, there you are, happily catching up with your frens in MSN and suddenly he come out and say some really disgusting things or stuffs like, i hate humans or wadever shit. you seriously think its my bloody business??? GET A LIFE. and fuck off. i love humans! but i hate him.

ok guys, dont get me wrong. i have no probs with people confiding in me. i mean, duh, you dont want me to tell anyone, my lips are sealed. as promised. and you have probs, tell me, ok fine, i listen and try to help. but seriously, sumtimes, wad's the point of me helping if you dont even want to help yourself in the first place. its a waste of everybody's time. and so i gave up. vomit blood ah. so, just dont bother me anymore. *sigh, wads the point of saying it here in the blog. the prob is still there. and i'll just have to solve it myself. its yucky to think that i have to solve it myself. but well, do i have a choice?

arhh!! i just have so much frustration and rage in me now. and hell, its torturing me. wad have i done to deserve all these!! argg!!! i hate it man. and the word hate doesnt even come close to what i m feeling now. ouran high school has finished loading. and i dun even have to mood to even watch it now. tell me what to do now!! tellmetellmetellme. im going nuts now. even the idea of terroists coming over and blow me out into pieces sounds good.

oh damn
i think im suffering from..
guys-phobia.
dont come near me, guys.
LOL

hahahhahaha, anyway, jerilyn came out with this concept that both of us are always attracting the wrong guys. and that's why, leading to guys-phobia.
siaodingdong! but somehow, i agree.

this phrase suddenly came through my mind.
"change what you cannot accept and accept what you cannot change."
so well, gotta try to change the lousy attitude that im having now. and make things extra clear when he starts saying sum disgustingly mushy stuff. probably need lots of mental support from frens. not a good feeling if you want to be mean to other. wad can i say? im a softie. hehex. must be there when i need you, k?!! haha, i know you all will, bestest budds in the world. *sigh. gotta pray and ask for helps.

lieujingying_needsanexperttotellmehowtodealwiththis. cositskillingherfrominside.