come to think of it, my results sucks. big time. at this rate, i gonna repeat one more year. i need to improve. badly. i want to score. i want a good future. i need motivation so that i can score next time. yes, i need motivation. and wad motivation can i have now? *sigh* a goal perhaps? but hell, i dont even own a goal. i dont even know what kind of job i want to have in the future. i dont even know whats my strength. im really at a loss when it come to future. among frens, we hardly talk abt issues like future, and of all ques that i asked, almost all gave the same reply. i dono. or ridiculous ans like 'i wan to be a taitai'. either they really have no idea what they wan for their future or they are just faking it. wadever..

so now wad? i dono. tell me. give me hope. give me motivation. im sick and tired of studying. i need to psyco myself so that i would love studying. tell me that i need to study. tell me what is my future gonna be like. tell me things that i want to know. tell me! knowledge is power. so give me knowledge. any knowledge. give me the power to stay focus.

oh god, give me the strength. bless me. PLEASE. i want a good future.