what is happening. why am i so tired nowadays. practically 'fainted' the moment my head hits the pillow. oh well, exercise is impt afterall. jus feel like sleeping my way through, but nah, that's impossible.

seems like i have no confidence of myself. seriously, what can i do for my FAC team members. nothing. i mean, sir wanted us to be in charge of a grp each, but what's the point. seriously, i really cannot do anything for them. It has been ages since i wear the boots and practise my own footdrills. i cant even rmb all the timing and all. wad if they ask me the timing. i am sure i cant ans those. no doubt that i got 3rd in the very same competition few yrs ago, but that was just pure luck, or maybe we had a good commander then. so now what? i am at a loss. feel so helpless and useless. and how do i expect the juniors to respect or ask me for help with such a lousy attitude.but the truth is, i cant change the attitude, cos the fact is that i am incompetent. i would rather stuck with admin stuff than to deal with these things. i mean, you can do the admin stuff at your own time own target. human beings... they are always there... judging.
wadever, i shall leave it to what sok ting gonna do. of cos, i will still help ,to the best that i can.

got my promo papers few days ago. and to my horror of horror, i got a U for chemistry. that's... bad! *sigh. i think i gonna mug with those Alevel students soon.
failed GP as well. oh well, i jus hope christina ng gonna leave us soon.
got an E for physics, kinda expected though, but there was a it of hope that i would actually get a C.
got B for maths. argg. i dont wan mr tan boon keong to go other class. he belong to S23!!!!!! NOOOO...
got A for econs, though i dono how it happens. i guess all those memorising helps.

school holiday is coming! WOOT! i jus cant wait for the days where i can sleep till the afternoon. that would be.. GREAT. seems like i wont be bored this holiday.i want to go oversea. i wan i wan.. argg. i want to exercise. hehehex. hmmm, movie+buffet tmr evening. organised by the the hse exco. wonder how it gonna be. wadever it is, gonna treat it as a class outing. i luv my classmates =)

JERILYN TAN. pon lesson until very shuang hor? hahahahhahs. orbi la u. got tricked today. orbi orbi. hehehehehx.