hmmm. lots of things have been happening around. i realise, i cant commit myself in a relationship, because of what i am. i don wan to lie to myself and other people. i jus dont like the idea of people coming into my world. the more you wan to come near me, the more i will run away. dont ask me why is it like this, its jus not easy for me to open up to anybody.

the reason why i am doing this is becos i dont wan to drag this anymore, cos i fear that things might be worse if we continue. so ya, i know i am cruel, but its better to be cruel now than to make things worse as time pass by. by then, it might be too late. i jus hope everything gonna be ok. no matter what, the future is still much more impt than what is happening now. So, ya i am jus gonna focus on my future instead of brooding about what is happening. i know its gonna be hard, but hey, i know i can do it. becos i believe that i can. and i will. and i believe u can do it as well. so lets jiayou tgt!